This started out as a journal, but somehow it's become quite political, and I feel at least today like pulling it back to it's original introspective intent.
Here's a very old drawing I found, which of course I completely forgot about. I did it when I was just 20 years old. It's not particularly good, but from the perspective of 45 years later, it reads to me like a prophetic page in the book of my life, and the reason I'm sharing this little story is not so much about the content of my personal story, but the way it illustrates the seamlessness and timelessness that we can touch when we are in creative (and mythic) mind space, which is also where the "oracular" can be seen. There are themes......
I didn't know much when I was 20 years old but I loved to draw. I had not yet encountered feminism, let alone eco-feminism, Goddess spirituality, patriarchy, the Chalice and the Blade, Lilith, etc. In fact, most of that was still underground and yet to evolve into the public eye. Those forces were fermenting. I had encountered the story of St. George and the Dragon, which is what this drawing was supposed to be about.
At the time I was living with my first boyfriend, and the face of George is clearly him! I still remember his angry, bullying face. He used to hit and humiliate me, classic abusive behavior, and after I left him I began the psychological quest to selfhood that most women have to make when leaving such a relationship..........back then the path to understanding and empowerment was not so clear, or so available. I am fortunate that I lived in Northern California, where the second wave of feminism was making its mark, and "consciousness raising groups" were becoming available, along with the early women's shelters.
The face of "St. George" was, although I had no such language for it, the face of patriarchal domination, which was personally playing out in my life and indoctrination, as well as universally.
But looking at this strange drawing, what was the "Dragon" all about? What a sad face that dragon has, not really fierce at all! And it rises from depths in the earth. Behind George is a barren kind of landscape, but behind the dragon, rising from the dark as the dragon seems to rise from the below, are all kinds of foliage, plants, flowers, the abundance and vitality of nature.
It was years later that I learned about symbolism of earlier Goddess cultures, the importance of the snake/dragon as a universal symbol of the Goddess Earth Mother, the Shakti, the Kundalini force, and the moving forces of nature ("Dragon Lines") often represented (as in Celtic art for example) as snakes. Perhaps the "slaying of the dragon", like "St. Patrick driving the snakes out of Ireland" was an intuiting of the loss of an earlier pagan reverence for the earth and the divine feminine. What Celtic Bard Robin Williamson spoke of as
"older yet and lovelier far, this Mystery...........and I will not forget."
I don't know if we can all say that we have (or haven't) "found our life work". I believe we can have a number of "life works", among them things we have to learn to do our soul making, and these might just as aptly be called "life themes". But looking back at touchstones in my own life, I see that the Goddess has always been with me, that if I contributed to anything significant in my life, it was my participation in the great wave of women (and men) who have sought to bring about the Return of the Goddess, with all that means, from women's rights to uncovering the deeply buried past and understanding the lost and buried mythos and overlay hidden underneath the veneer of patriarchal religion culture.
And the muses can be Sybils. In fact, the Oracle of Delphi was called......... "the Pythoness"!
