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Found at the Chalice Well in Glastonbury, UK. |
In Ursula Leguin's Earthsea Novels, the Summer Solstice is celebrated by dancing "the Long Dance" all night, to watch the sun rise in the morning. Something many do on this planet as well, and still. I have done so myself. I wish all the Blessings of the Day, and may we each find a way to "dance the Long Dance" together in body or in spirit this sacred and most primeval day. Here (again, and again) is the poem I share on such days, because the words and harp of the poet will always arise as I look out at the rising sun on the Solstice, the "World's Self Seen" in all of Her abundance, no matter where I am. "Every blue yonder Her brass harp rings" for those who can stop, who will listen to the deep throb of the Heartbeat, to the Harp strings sounding. "She will seal us with Her seed", the poet tells us, and this, strangely, is the taste of immortality I experience, each Solstice, when I stop to listen to the Song that Walks among us.
Every morning when I rise with the sun to water my garden, and especially this morning, I find myself talking to all the people that live there. The tall sunflowers, making seeds beloved by finches and sparrows. The desert tortoise who has decided to live here. My cats, and the green scarab beetles getting drunk on tree sap. The bees, having a drink at the bird bath, and the hummingbird. All the beings sensed and unseen, but friendly somehow too. As a child, the garden was full of "people" for me to visit, and now, an old woman, I seem to have returned again to that happy experience, unconcerned with what others think, and increasingly tired of all my human "identities" at last. So much is possible by just shifting the way we see things, from an "it" to a "you". When we "see with a Webbed Vision". The world becomes again conversant. I think (again) of a story by Ursula Leguin called "May's Lion" that speaks so eloquently to that power of naming. But let the rest of this post belong (again) to the Poet, Robin Williamson. And the Glory of the Summer Solstice!
Summer Solstice, Brushwood, 2008 |
Verses from Powis
I am a lover of the steady Earth
And of Her waters.
She says: “Let the light be brilliant,
for those who will cherish color.”
What if there be no Heaven?
She says: “Touch my Breasts - the fields are golden.”
Her Songs are all of love, lifelong.
Every blue yonder, Her brass harp rings.
Unlettered, in Her rivers our cherished sins
Drift voiceless in Her clouds.
She will rust us with blossom
She will forgive us
She will seal us
with Her seed.
Robin Williamson
You that create the diversity of the forms:
The Guest-House
This being human is a guest-house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you
out for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
I'm at a funky hot spring I sometimes go to when I need to, and this morning I saw a beautiful snake curled up by my campsite. Determining that it was not a rattle snake, I watched it unwind, flash its forked tongue at me a few times, and then spiral away slowly into the bushes. I felt quite graced by that presence! Which may or may not have anything to do with finding another "book that never happened" in my Blog, and wanting to share it again, as well as to remind myself to not let it just vanish. It was a proposal for a book arts residency that I didn't get. I really should see about just finishing the book myself somehow........................
All images are copyright Lauren Raine MFA (2017)
"Gaia" (1987) |
A lot of my body of work over the years has been lost or destroyed, and what I retain are photos. Lately I've felt like it's time to digitize some of those paintings or masks, to preserve them in someway. Just felt like posting a few of the "Lost" here..................many of them I have no idea where they went. But perhaps this post is a way of honoring them because I put so much work and intent into each one, and it makes me sad that too much moving around, no storage, lack of self esteem and hence respect for my own work, and sometimes the intentional destruction by a hostile family member......wasted them. But I'm glad that I have the photos at least!
The painting above was 9 feet by 4 feet, and was destroyed, as big paintings so often are, when there is no space to store or exhibit them. I worked so hard on that painting! I showed it only once, as part of my mid course MFA Show, it was accompanied by a spoken word musical"The Magician - Art" (1994) |
From the Rainbow Bridge Oracle, a Tarot deck I created more or less in the early 90's. Another life size oil painting, this time representing the Magician Tarot Card. Once it was taken off the stretchers to store, it was all over for the painting. I stopped doing big paintings after that! I envisioned the Magician invoking the white light of the Divine, the unified force, running it through his mind and heart with the power of his intention, and then manifesting on this plane of being the colors of the Rainbow spectrum, which is earthly life in all of its diversity. I used my then husband, Duncan, as the model, and I still feel it was very successful, getting across the concept I wanted to express about Art and Creation = Magic, as well as a pretty good portrait of him. It was also a way of honoring Duncan, but a bitter ending to the relationship never allowed me to let him know that.
"The Goddess" (1982) |
"The Empress" (1976) |
One of the early Tarot paintings I did in the 70's when I lived in Berkeley. I look back at them and they were rather beautiful, if clumsy. This one was from a photo I took of a woman who lived in the warehouse/artist's studio building I lived in in Berkeley (there are pretty much no longer any such thing in Berkeley now thanks to gentrification). I had to take it off the stretchers, where it was rolled up with a bunch of large early paintings. I am saddened to say that I actually threw this painting away into a dumpster at a storage facility. More of the self hate I learned somewhere along the way. Someone somewhere might have enjoyed the painting. I like to hope someone saw the paintings in the dumpster and rescued them. A bad time in my life.
"Lilith" (1992) |
This one I really like, one of several paintings I did one long winter in 1993, when I lived in New York, using pieces of cut paper to frame the paintings. Always meant to continue the series but never did. This one I realize is not lost, but I sent it to the founder of the Lilith Institute in California, so it found a home! Huzzah! She even framed it!
untitled (1973?) |
"Day of Radience" (1986) |
One of the "New Age" paintings I did in Grad School when I was not only going to Grad School but also working with a group of artist friends while we explored some of the spiritual modalities enthusiastically available in the 80's, including past life regression. Alas, the painting is long gone who knows where, as are also those friends (except for one: glad you are still around Madeleine!)
"The High Priestess" (1975) |
Another of the life size large oil paintings I did when I lived in Berkeley, meant to be for the Tarot. Probably this painting, taken off the canvas and hauled around for years in a roll of canvases, ended up in the dumpster at a storage facility when I was unable to continue to keep the storage chamber. I am ashamed of that, because it was a beautiful painting of my friend the poet Felicia Miller, and I labored long and hard on it, and I should have valued it. At least I have a record of it.
"Three Roots of the Tree of Life" (1987) |
Part of a 3 part shrine I made as I became involved in Paganism in the early 80's - they were meant to represent the cycles of generation, reproduction, death and rebirth. I used to store my art in a closet in my mother's home - unfortunately my mentally ill brother destroyed it while I was gone. I stopped leaving any of my art at my mother's house after that. Once again, I forget how many of my paintings are "rooted".
"A House of Doors III" (1987) |
From my MFA Show, "A House of Doors", which also included a spoken word/musical piece inspired by Laurie Anderson called "A House of Doors". This painting, I believe, was destroyed by my brother, because it disappeared from my mother's house.
"Lovers" (1989) |
A strange painting, but I really liked it, although it is very clumsy in its composition. In the summer of 1989 I had a wonderful, magical residency at the Cummington Community in Western Massachusetts. For a month, surrounded by artists and writers and musicians in this (alas, now defunct) old artist's community, I was on fire creatively! And somewhat literally too, as the whole series of paintings I did then involved transformation and shamanic fire. I never showed any of them, to anyone, now that I think of it, but I guess I called them "The Shamanic Journey". This one came from a dream in which a man offered me fire. No idea where it went, but I think it was destroyed.
"A House of Doors" (1987) |
Title painting for my MFA Show, a big painting about 5 by 4. Later I used the image in my Tarot deck for "The Chariot", as it represents envisioning where we want to go, and spiritual progress. I love the image, which used a photo of Catherine Nash, an extraordinary artist I knew in Graduate School. I do remember that this one fell off the wall and right through a chair, so it was destroyed.
"Day of Radience II" (1987) |
Another version of this image from the 80's................I did lithos using it too. Part of the "A House of Doors" series.
"Guide" (1984) |
From the time of High New Age, an envisioning Higher and Lower Self communing. No idea where it went.
"Transformation" (1989) |
This was the last of my "Shamanic Journey" paintings from my intense month at the Cummington Community, and I've always loved it, although no one else seems to like it as they seem to feel it is gruesome, or represents some kind of anti-abortion statement! Hardly! But not wishing to alarm those who came to visit me, I took it off my walls long ago and it seems to have disappeared. Yes, Stanley Kubrick used the fetus for his "Space Child" so I guess it's a cliche. But what I was talking about is the incubation and birth into a new state of elevated being..............the child, the soul, is wrapped in the fire of transformation. For me it's a deeply spiritual statement and I wish I had it still. But I seem to be the only one who thinks so!
Untitled (1977) |
I remembered the other day an extraordinary poem gifted to me by Ilana Stein, who I met in one of the workshops I gave at the Kripalu Institute in 2008.